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Samifer ([personal profile] javert) wrote2025-08-22 04:40 pm
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close the world, open the nExt

I was able to go to the park today... Actually, I'm writing this while sitting in the park! Yippee!

Originally, I was going to give stream of consciousness another try for this post, but actually, I might try to stay focused on a specific topic... Namely, I've been thinking a lot about dissociation, the internet, gender identity, and the line that connects all of these together. It was already on my mind following an encounter under a YouTube video about the LaLaLand series by biggt (this makes it sound like I met a stranger in the comments, and I did, but it was the video's creator, haha) and it's only become more present after watching the Serial Experiments Lain YouTube video I shared in my last post.

Some personal ramblings under this cut. Warning for some light dysphoria/dissociation discussion. )
volkameria: Jeltsje (OC) pointing at a computer screen and talking (pic#jeltsje_point)
Volkameria ([personal profile] volkameria) wrote2025-08-21 09:40 am

Tiny Roche Limit thought

There’s a line in a Dr Who episode I watched last night, as said by a scientist to his assistant:

Nobody asked her to risk her life. This woman, she doesn't deserve it. Whoever she is, however brilliant, however brave, she's not you. She is not worth risking a single hair on your head. Not to me.

So anyway, the results obsessed, ends justify the means character deciding that the person they care about is worth more than progress and understanding and stating it so bluntly and succinctly there’s no room for doubt even if they themselves are doubting their decisions is SUPER ROMANTIC and tickles my brain in a very fun way and is peak Jeltsje/Rodney I don’t make the rules.
javert: lysandre making a heart with his fingers, looking unimpressed. cat ears and whiskers are drawn over his face (pkmn lysandre heart)
Samifer ([personal profile] javert) wrote2025-08-21 02:03 pm
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a little bit of positivity, as a treat

IT'S RAINING... 😣

I don't care tho, I'm going to the park after lunch no matter what. Narrator's voice: He did not go to the park, for it started raining way harder as soon as he was done eating. I'm making this post early partly for that reason and partly because I'm not going to lie, I've been making so many long posts and I want today to be a Small Blog Post Of Respite. So here is a small blog post. Of respite.

Because of the kind of downer vibes of my post about exchanges, I thought it'd be nice to try to make a list of 3 art pieces and 3 fic pieces I've done for an exchange that I still really like, as well as 3 art gifts and 3 fic gifts I've gotten that I love. (Author's Note: I love all my exchange gifts TBH, this isn't like my top 6 gifts or whatever; I just tried to grab ones I remember really enjoying!) To show that it's not all bad... Originally this was going to be at the end of a longer post, but then I kept making posts that were so long it seemed more of a hassle to do that LOL.

I'm also going to do my best to keep some variety going so I'm not just showing you 12 PRFR/PokΓ©mon pieces lmao. No guarantees tho...

Behold... )

There you go! Not much else to report on today... I'm making progress on art stuff. I wrote something for [community profile] seasonsofdrabbles but I'm not 100% satisfied with it so I want to rework it today... Hmm. I found out through a really cool & thorough YouTube video that you can play the entirety of the Serial Experiments Lain PS1 game online! I don't know if I would do it myself, but it's really neat. Reminds me of how you can also play Yume Nikki and a lot of its fangames in-browser too nowadays. It seems to run better than the Steam port, too, and you can even play with other people... I always see so many people playing 2kki together, which tracks with how 2kki is, lol. I talk a lot about fanfic and fanart (and I guess now fansites as well) but the variety in fan endeavors is one of my favorite thing about fandom..!

Let's keep creating! πŸ’ͺ
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Volkameria ([personal profile] volkameria) wrote2025-08-20 06:24 pm

[100words] What were you doing just now?

Title: What were you doing just now?
Fandom: Dungeons and Daddies (S3) - allusions to Hundred Line: Last Defense Academy.
Rating: T (mentions of violence and bullying)
Notes: Sucks when you forget something important, doesn't it?
Read more... )
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Volkameria ([personal profile] volkameria) wrote2025-08-20 06:16 pm

[100words] What's My Line?

Title: What's my line?
Fandom: Stargate: Atlantis
Rating: G
Notes: Rodney/OC, fills the prompt "Forgotten".

Read more... )

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Samifer ([personal profile] javert) wrote2025-08-20 10:30 pm
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meow, miaou even

I've written like three very long entries in a row and I need to Slow Down... However I do kinda like the idea of telling the story of when someone decided to copy me so we'll just hope this doesn't take me hours to write. It probably won't. (Fingers crossed...)

Torn between the VOCALOID song and the New Division song... )

Back to the present, I'm signed up for [community profile] ficinabox!!! Yippee!!! I want to finish my letter before the week ends, which should be easy because I just need to go over last year's letter and correct/add/remove stuff from what I've already written, and make a new section for LindaΒ³, and I already know what I want to write for that more or less. The next step is going to be figuring out who I can match to... but I'm not super worried about that.

Not much else to say! We started another puzzle. I've been getting work done and making progress on my SOD assignment. Oh, the hAPPy birthday flash revealed, and this is the little pixel art I made for it, which you can see at x5 this size on AO3:



I also got a wonderful gift from [personal profile] linky which I'll link here as well πŸ’— please look at it!!

Please wish me good weather so I can go out tomorrow... T_T Today was a bust...
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Azure / Bede β˜… ([personal profile] bedes) wrote2025-07-24 07:02 pm

Writing Is Hard

I hate having to write down my coherent thoughts on Siffrin having implied internalized homophobia for this analysis essay. Can’t I just point to Siffrin saying that he wishes he didn’t experience romantic attraction, Bad Touch, and their religion being implied to be based in ideas of unchanging fate, and then gesture at all that vaguely for a while


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Azure / Bede β˜… ([personal profile] bedes) wrote2025-07-19 07:59 pm

Local Nerd Complains About Localization Differences

CRK localization can be really bad, specifically WRT Shadow Milk.

  • English localization: “Excuse me? I’m sorry to disturb you… But I’m still the MAIN CHARACTER here!” // Original text directly translated: “Sorry, but I’m still the main character. You haven’t forgotten about me, have you?”
  • In response to Shadow Milk saying she should trust him (“her colleagues”), Eternal Sugar says in the English localization: “Would you~?” // Her response directly translated: “Would I trust you if I were you~?”
  • English localization: “Well well! Where are my favorite minions?” // Original text directly translated: “Kids~?” (Context: he’s calling out to Black Sapphire and Candy Apple.)
  • English localization: “We all live for some spicy drama, amirite?” // Original text directly translated: “Is it okay to say when hard things are hard?”

That last one is especially egregious imo. I don’t even know where they got that


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Azure / Bede β˜… ([personal profile] bedes) wrote2025-07-17 02:30 pm

My Thoughts on the Appare March Preview

Part of the reason why I find Fuuta singing in pre-war Japanese so interesting is because, up until now, he's always been a character focused on progress, thematically. An intense focus on the internet, technology in its many forms, and progressive views. Even spraypaint is associated with rebellion, punk, and the like.

But, of course, religion is associated with its opposite. Stagnation, or regression, perhaps. "Traditional values"... While we don't know much about Amaneism quite yet, we know that Amane's original cult stressed a refusal of modern medicine, and the values of purity/non-vulgarity.

So now, Fuuta is singing in such old Japanese that many Japanese viewers either borderline or outright do not understand him. From "progress" to "regress", from the future to the past.


bedes: Fanart of Natsuki from Doki Doki Literature Club, holding a cupcake up to her mouth and smiling widely, about to take a bite (natsuki)
Azure / Bede β˜… ([personal profile] bedes) wrote2025-07-08 08:26 pm

Yapping About Isafrin

Dunno what it is but Isabeau’s "we can practice!" thing to Siffrin is just. Urbgngngifh. That and him being totally fine with Siffrin needing time to figure out how they feel, and knowing that Siffrin loves them deeply, even if it's not romantic.

IDKKK I think it’s the fact that he's, just, so willing, and even excited, to go at Siffrin's pace…?

And it's made so much more impactful by the fact that he’s not "perfect" as a love interest, either, I think. A lot of queer stories write love interests as like… Always Perfectly Healthy And Communicative! It'd be a lot less impactful if Isabeau didn't get so jealous to the point he snaps at Mirabelle, if he didn't wrongly assume things about Siffrin and not ask for clarification (touching), if he didn't have a Whole Entire Thing about not being able to confess to Siffrin.

Idk. I like it. I like that he has romantic vices, and I like that being pushy or impatient is not one of them. I like that he makes a point to make it so Siffrin can take the lead, try certain actions to see how they feel, and figure out how his feelings for Isabeau. I think it makes Isabeau a really good match for Siffrin. Someone more demanding would probably active Siffrin’s people-pleaser, hide-how-you-really-feel-for-their-sake tendencies.

This was originally supposed to be like 3 sentences max oops
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Azure / Bede β˜… ([personal profile] bedes) wrote2025-04-21 11:02 am

Reading the Dead Plate Art Book

Unironically very funny of the art book to be like "Vincent has a pretty average relationship with his parents — they love him and don’t put any significant amount of pressure on him," and then IMMEDIATELY follow that up with art of Vincent’s dad committing a homophobic microaggression and Vincent’s mom passive-aggressively commenting about how he (a gay man) (in case you forgot) should get a girlfriend and go to church more.
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Azure / Bede β˜… ([personal profile] bedes) wrote2025-06-18 06:08 pm

My Thoughts on "Life"

I experienced an initial gut reaction of extreme negativity to what was revealed in "Life", but, after thinking it over, I don't think that it was warranted.

Yes, we were led to think that Yuno had an abortion, and that her story was about the residual guilt from that. But a miscarriage, even if accidental, can also cause a ton of trauma and guilt. There is a long, long history of pregnant people being blamed for their miscarriage, with reasoning varying from pseudo-scientific to religious in nature.

I also initially thought, "If she just had an accident which made her miscarry, then she shouldn't even be in Milgram!!" But, then I thought about that for, like, two seconds, and... well, the point of MILGRAM is that none of the prisoners should be there, isn't it? If we view the fetus as if it is a person for a moment, as Jackalope seems to, the only differentiating factor from other prisoners is that it was accidental. Which could be said for multiple other prisoners, too — especially the ones where they likely accidentally caused someone else's suicide: Fuuta, Mahiru and Kazui.

Yuno is still undoubtedly the most innocent prisoner there by a long shot (after all, it was a fetus, and not a person). But I think she isn't quite as out-of-place as I thought. The whole point is that it's cruel and unusual, and, even if Yuno did not make the choice to terminate her pregnancy, it is still extraordinarily common for those who experience miscarriages (especially in an accident) to feel guilt about what happened. And it's not as if the narrative of MILGRAM is saying that she's correct to feel guilty — her MV clearly portrays the accident as a traumatic event that she was a victim in.

Um idk how to end this post. Yuno is a complex character who has gone through a lot, and it is fine that she experiences trauma and shame due to her miscarriage, as that reflects the reality of countless real people who experienced the same thing. Her being portrayed as experiencing guilt is not the creators of MILGRAM saying that she is correct to feel guilt. Also innocent Yuno sweep.
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Azure / Bede β˜… ([personal profile] bedes) wrote2025-07-29 06:47 pm

A Good Smutfic Is Also a Character Study

Yes, sex is hot and all that (said acespecly), but also I think that it's not discussed enough that sexuality is just an extremely interesting form of characterization in fiction. Nothing wrong with liking it in a horny way, obviously, but I feel like it overshadows how interesting sexuality is as a topic outside of erotic contexts.

Some of my favorite pieces of art in the world are about people coming to terms with their sexuality (queer sexuality, kink, etc), people introspecting on why they find their kinks hot, and dealing with sexual issues. Including (or maybe especially?) the less pleasant stuff, like sexual trauma, sex as self-harm, balancing communication and consent in sexual scenarios, etc. It's an extremely fascinating form of characterization to me.
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Azure / Bede β˜… ([personal profile] bedes) wrote2025-02-12 11:35 pm

Annoyed About People Mischaracterizing My Fave

Incredibly niche pet peeve but people who call Fuuta an incel are so annoying because they're blatantly ignoring multiple parts of Fuuta's characterization.

His whole Thing was that he harassed someone over art theft. Art. Theft. That is peak stupid internet leftist slapfighting. Fuuta is also very known to consistently talk about "knowing his rights", justice, etc. It's very clear that he's intended to be a take on 'leftists' who use their sense of morality as a reason to harass and bully others.

But no. He is a man and he *checks notes* plays video games. So he's the type of 'chronically online' that is a violent misogynist. Obviously.

TL:DR Fuuta would have his privileges listed in his bio and if you disagree then you do not understand what his character is about on a base level. And I'm not kidding
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Hopepunk Princess ([personal profile] adore) wrote2025-08-19 11:06 pm
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πŸŒ™

Moontime began around noon today. Cramps were significantly less than last time, so the ayurvedic medicine I've been taking (a combination of ashokarishta and lodhrasava) is doing its thing. Last month I was obsessing over Nushu period panties. I've been pimping the Nushu Hiphugger to anyone and everyone when the topic of periods comes up, and someone I recced it to has become as much of a fan as I am:


I replied with my original post saying I'm the one who recced it, and this was her response (she @/ed me and I redacted my full name although you'll know it if you know my debut novel/have been around my blog long enough lol)

I'm not being dramatic when I say my life has changed. I could never wear a period product for four to six hours in one go without overflowing, before. My life has changed so much that I went out with Bella (who is here briefly) for brunch. We had congee and pancakes! And after we came back to my house to spend the day coworking. I even dropped her back home, despite that taking a couple of hours. I used to never be able to go out on my period.